A post copy from my friend

你可知道
要女人卸妝
面對一個愛的人
是需要有很大的勇氣

你可知道
當女人讓男人
脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
當你抱著她
說一句愛你
是多麼讓她感動的一件事情

你可知道
女人付出了一切
男人因為得到而不再去用心時
女人的心會撕裂成一片一片

你可知道
當女人頂著哭花的臉
走在街上
不管是不是有人再看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
當你離開她
不再接她電話
但要她每次按你的號碼時
是有著極大的期待與恐懼的

你可知道
女人的愛
男人的愛
最大的不同在於
男人忘不了初戀
但是..女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀,也是這輩子最後一個來愛

女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情
不是吗...?

男孩,不轻易哭泣,只有面对最爱的人时,才会变得脆弱……男孩,不轻易哭泣,只有在太爱你的时候,才会放下自尊……
女孩,如果有个男孩为你哭,请你拉住他的手,他真的可以陪你走完一生……
女孩,如果有个男孩为你哭,请不要放弃他,也许一个选择会毁掉一个人….
所以大家要记住,,…
若有男孩为你哭,他应该陪你走一生…

holiday

Raya holiday starting now. No far place to go this holiday but I know I will have a hectic end year holiday later :) Well lately there was some misunderstood between me and the housemates. I don't really get what is in people mind but anyway I wanna thank them for 'growing' me.

I hate taking foreign language. For my course I'm not sure whether is it compulsory for us to take foreign language whereby I'm now taking Spanish! I sucks in the Spanish exam!

Friends around campus all gone home 1 by 1 so since I still have a Tzu Ching camp at Melaka on this Saturday and can't back home yet, I decided not to stay school too instead of go Klang to find my aunty. I was lost and it was the road traffic congested time. So the supposed-to-be 40 minutes journey took me about 1 3/4 hours to reach Andalas area!

p/s: South Africa or Switzerland?

why?

Today I saw this at one of my friend's Facebook status and I like it.
There's always a friend that screws you over,
There's always a mistake that loses your trust,
There're always people who think they everything,
There's always a lie that changes everything,
There's always a secret that meant to be kept,
There's alway...s a risk you weren't meant to take,
There's always a slut who was once innocent.
Then again, why cant we just be ourselves? :)

many

I have many things to write but I don't know where to start from -_-

compliment

5 Compliments Every Woman Loves To Hear from Yahoo~

1.You're Irreplaceable.
2. You bring light to my life.
3. You are perfect just the way that you are.
4. I love your (fill in the blank: bright eyes, cute toes, toned arms, sleek legs, silky hair).
5. I am so proud of you.

Do you got me? Hehehh

xoxo

keep in touch

Too desperate for fried sotong and get scratch by the wooden table when stand up

The friends :))))

3 lovely friends :) I miss the sweet times we had at Norway

Very good at posing and taking photos although they are guys -_-

Damn sat lai when brought them to the club at Kuantan- After Seven (so called 'the most happening club in East Coast') because it was Thursday- not much people -_-

I have no regret at all joining the youth exchange (YE) to Norway last year although 10k has gone because i know great friends during that trip. What more good is most of us are still keeping in touch and update each others thru the hottest stuff facebook!!! Went back to Kuantan last 2 weeks and ye friends Jee Hong and Li Weng visited me. Both of them staying at my home for 3 nights and i hope they really enjoy. Not dare to say that am a qualified 'tour guide' but i try my best to bring them all around the places that we have over Kuantan. Fyi Kuantan is a small town but we still have all the basic necessity la even not as update as KL. I wonder when the all of us can reunion again (Kevin the leader currently at US, Ai Yin currently at India while the rest still stuck in Malaysia but soon all will off to different countries too). It's true that when we are near, we won't appreciate and value the person and time, but when they leave us and go far away, we will miss their absence terribly. Miss the golden time of togetherness, talks, laughter & happiness. So nowadays i cherish each & every moment with my loved ones whenever i get home. Just don't want to miss it for any chance.

xoxo

shooting

Demo of nail extension

Briefing of what we are going to do

Poh Cheng (host)

Yuen Kwan and i (switcher and guest host)

Poh Peng and Yi Wen ( Camerawoman and editor)

The next episode of live tv show will be topic regard nail care (manicure and pedicure). At first we have made an appointment with my aunt- Sam but as a result of last minute work or should call it not enough of preparation/sincerity plan changed and the group mates made a new decision which was head off to Taiping to interview somebody else. I was damn disagree before the night and like calling them for times to talk over but still we made the trip up. We still have 9 going to be 8 more episodes to go. GAMBATEH :)

xoxo

BUSY

~*The PERFECT DIARIES by Eve Production*~

'I think its difficult to deal with something when your interest is not there'.. Well i just changed my fb's status with this quote! Lately my course (Broadcasting) started our assigment and my group was the first whom officialy started the live tv show. We were busy doing the shooting, editing, converting, script writing etc. My life is just so hectic! I feel like have so many things need to learn and do but kind of don't know start from where. Fuck am blur of what am i posting but just wanted to type something to release my tension :(

Anyway i like this group picture of us :)

xoxo

lucky

I was in bad mood yesterday night. I don't feel like want to take the stupid public bus for long journey anymore, really hopefully not anymore! Thats over! Well, today talked phone with my 'in-law'. I'm damn happy with it because I have got long time no heard about them. And get choosen as one of the lucky draw winner and got that prize for mom, her wanted book! I simply feel lucky :)

p/s: she's a lucky, she's a star~

xoxo

fate

命运这两个神秘的字，
总是影响著我们，
它似有似无的外貌下，
究竟是能够改变，
还是不能改变呢？

sales time

I just back from shopping and ohno I'm broke now. Aunty asked me why so fast finished shopping come back so early. Not I want to come back early, I had finished spending my cash :(

omg!

Gosh.. I always believing in what comes around, goes around. Yes, you are rich but your behaviour, they way you speak and dress up are sometimes even shit than poor people. I should say your richness is not belongs to you, its from your parents. I feel sad and heartache for your parents they have such a son but no use, because your mommy whom are the one cause you to be like that, dai siu yeh attitude. Oh i suddenly remember this. Whenever I talk something which need some extra knowledge or stuff from school books, you will just sit there and keep your fcuking mouth shut. Its because you are too stupid and don't know what to say as your mind is only full with selfishness and pride, like your mom perhaps. Open your eyes bigger and see clearly who is the one may bring harm to you and who is the one will give you a hand in your future. I don't care how your life will go on but please when speak, mind your words with my family member. I don't need to mention much. I take it as if you are so good enough, further your study to the same level or even higher than me. Then, I will salute you!

again loor

Once its happened there is no turning back.. 1 year? 2 years? 4 years? 7 fcuking years? All nonsence! I try to ignore but its already stuck in my heart. Try hard not to use you but sometimes i need your help and need you to fulfil my demand. Let me pay you or else I will feel regret.

empty town

Mom is away for 5 days and I know am going to be very very boring to dead! So she had left some money for me to spend. After the first day she fly off, i started to do house cleaning and did a lot of complaints while doing it. I finished the house chores in a day time and free! Since I was free, an idea appeared in my mind SHOPPING :P Holding the money and card, I plan to be a so called shopaholic for 1 day. Drove straight to the mall- Megamall. Walk and walk~ round and round, nothing for me to shop! But still disappointedly got 2 pairs of the in-the-wanted-list bikini! Feel dissatisfaction and complained to aunty about this empty town with not much updated so the next day after dinner we went to the other mall- East Coast Mall to shop again. This time worse, both of us got nothing but end up chit chatting and sharing a Venti size hot Chocolate at Starbucks. Grrrrrr, people always said no money no talk but I suddenly realized, got money also no talk :(

p/s: if everything is fine, let's go 'hot'+'cold'+ 'wet' tomorrow *wink*

xoxo

desperate

I miss you so damn much these days and I don't know what is so nice about there that you still can stay back for like weeks. But feel good after the call because you think about me too :) Hate and love that poor baby bitch. Once happen, its happened and no turning back. Even nightmares strike me every night. About the beach, about the devil. 

P/s: I've treated you with whole  of my heart, no regret of knowing you

xoxo

The Lion City

Well, I'm quite enjoying my few days staying at uncle and friend's house at Singapore- Serangoon and Eunos. At the first and second day I was like tour around the places by myself and I like it!! As aunty told me Singapore has not much places or should say nothing much can do here but the most things can do are shopping and visited the library. So, I really visited 2 libraries in a day. Hahaha might sound funny like what? Come Singapore all the way and visited the library? Ehh I can say you are wrong lo, I have been to the latest new built library which is the National Libray. Malaysia lose la. The next few days went out with Agnes, so called my tour guide. Been to Sentosa for games and its quite nice. Next time I can bring if who wanna come :p
p/s 1: Thanks Agnes's aunty for the dinner at Vienna buffet and thanks Ben for the Clinique mask
p/s 2: Miss my ah gu, jiu mu and ai nio nio loadss
p/s 3: Feel sorry to the parents because I have spent about $200+ within 5 days (excluded shopping) eventhough no working during this semester break :p
xoxo

lost

I've been losing myself in blog for almost a month? What to do too lazy.. Yesterday i visited grandma and have an enjoyable talk with her. Seems like many people very concern about whether have I found my the other half. Haha! Grandma am still young and long way to go. No worries adults, I can handle myself.
p/s: if you love something, set it free,if it's come back, it's yours. . . it doesn't. . . it never was. . .
xoxo

frust

-latest 'cat face' of muaaa with si fu-

Is it my bad day? Today after class i went out by myself to The Mines to buy some souvenirs. My purse was almost empty and only left 20bux. Hmm i was wondering can i buy anything with that small sum of cash? Fine, will go withdraw money at the long lost atm machine when i reach at The Mines. When reached there and stepped into the mall, i was exciting to look around for brooches and i got it from far, the shining shining thingy. I straight to the atm machine and queue. While waiting for my turn, i hold my card and have a look with it tho its only 1 simple stupid card. I found out at the surface of the chip had few black dots or scratches kind of like damage face then i just thought like arh every card also would be like that even our mykad. When it was my turn, i inserted the card type password and bla. Transaction loading and suddenly came out the words 'device failure'! Fcuk, i tried on the other machine the same words came out too. Ain't that easy to give up coz i really need cash that time. So i went to the RHB and Maybank atm machine give a damn try and all failed too. I was so piss off. Imagine the moment you are so so in need of cash and both the credit card and atm card were not functioned. I called mom and asked her why is the card so lousy?! Why is everything in cip also da lousy?! As some way to cool down myself, Starbucks is the best place for me and i got something to eat and drink with my card. Thanks mom :) 

xoxo

miss you

I don't care what you will talk about me, a serious home sicker or anak manja, i just wanna say that i M I S S you terribly, horribly and vegetably....
my daddy Henry, my mommy Sam, my kor kor Boy Boy, my mui mui Suen Mui Zai, my cute cute puppy Lassie, my ma ma, my ah ma, my ah gong and of course my gem ZABBH...
Its been month i din go back to my sweet homey but thank God we are still keeping in touch all the time via mobile. Yes, no wonder the phone bil are in 3 figure every month. By the way missing my brother whom is in the Nasional Service Camp site (Muadzam Syah) now. Just listen to the description of mommy and sis aren't enough, imma can't wait to see your almost-bold head and LOL :)

p/s: my loves and misses for you guys will never fade~ 
xoxo

grant me pls

-This is the  top-wanted-wish. I wish that he is my baby. LMAO-
Aiyayaeeeiii.. Am so in love with Abba's songs.. Super Trouper ~am sick or tired of everything~
I hope that there is a lucky angel by my side..
I have many 'ridiculous' wishes!
I wish that i can get marks without handling the Pengenalan Komunikasi Massa assignments..
I wish that i can have the priority to have holiday first..
I wish that i can be successful in doing everything like go for interview..
I wish that i would have deck of casheSS or cardSSS with me so that i can spend without thinking much..
I wish that i can have a smart and briliiant brain so that i don't needa to be so headache when doing assignment or die hard of thinking what to write on the English online forum..
I wish that i can have a personal flight so that i can fly back homey-Kuantan anytime as i want..
I wish that i can have my ideal-dream-partner right now..
I wish that i can fly all over the world with somebody's sponsor every year..
I wish that, am not too greedy in all my 'ridiculous' wished ^,^

x o x o

simply

*Today, i open my pendrive and look back the old photos of mine. This picture is taken at beach by my old friend, Tun Seng or Hoon Leng during secondary school time :)*

It's week 10 now, which means i still have 4 more weeks of schooling and will be the end of second semester. I was thinking what have i really achieve or done during this semester. Did i really improve myself and learn something new? Yes, i think so. Am more saving after came back from the winter place as i know i will to spend up a big sum of money end of this year again.

I just can't stand of the-not-stable-weather these days. It really makes me feel hot and cold. Rainy and sunny and rainy and sunny. Suddenly, i miss all the seniors. Its like been quite some time no meeting or gathering with you guys/gals. Or oppppps, should say that, you guys always have activities but i can't make it. 

Putra fm is looking for announcer and had an open interview for those who are interested. Since i was interested in this job and not manage to go last semester, so i decided to go for it this time. The interview is hard for me and i think i was sucks in that. My self confidence is not as much as i imagine when i was inside the room facing 1 main interviewer and 3 others 'penumpang' interviewer or listeners may be? Not that  desperate sangat want to be an announcer but argh, really not satisfied with myself la! After came out from that room, my mood was like oh no oh fcuk oh what am i oh how can i be so useless kononla mahasiswi. My whole minded was filling with regret! I felt regret that why i don't practise and read more English materials! My knowledge is so so tiny and the speaking voice is only in one tone *frust betul2*

Somehow thank god, at the same time my darling daddy whom just landed called me. He got me my wanted perfume The Beat and i take that as my 'consolation prize' to cure my down mood. I love my dad the most!!Huuuhu. . . I have not meet with daddy for errrr 5 weeks, miss him :(  

p/s: thank 'you' for your hard work. i can see that youre trying your best lately. i heart you much!!! XOXO

是将吗？

有时我不知道我是不是要求太高了
还是我想太多
我每次都告诉自己
你可以对人家好 可是你不能期望人家也会以你对人家的方式对待会你
但是 啊 好像还是很难做到 算了吧 人 是需要被一些事情磨练才会成长的 不能事事都顺意
我发觉 时下的年轻人真的和以前变得越来越不像话
不是我很老 我也是在这个年代出生的年轻人啊
但是我认为 在家里就要跟家规 出到外面 你要怎样搞 做任何事 两个字赠你 保重
三更半夜去看戏会比较爽 和一大班朋友出去也就更爽 喝茶更是免不了的事
你 如果你是一个女孩子 有没有想过有时在家里的妈妈是会担心突然间 乱七八糟的心情全走完出来还好家里有几分钱可以供我用 让我有机会到处飞去我已经等不及多几个月的来临了

aih

argggh fxukkkk

boring boring am so boring..

i want some excitement..

everyday doing the same thing..

eat sleep class assignment..

i wanna go home.. want some outing with my family..

the smell of sales are getting near to me..

i wanna go shopping tomorrow..

shop like nobody's business..

but sadly need to attend the softball class before get outa of here..

*x*o*x*o*

我

很闷  线不好  找资料有困难
随便乱打几个字  “你”有看到吗
很闷  雨要下了  不能去泳池
我又想睡觉但今天已经睡到中午才起
不知道
我
会很黏你吗
我
会要求很高吗
我
会很烦吗
我
会很幼稚吗
我
会疼爱你吗
我是在说什么 闷到傻了 
快过完今天啦  我不要停留在22号
♥♥♥♥超级不想"你"♥♥♥♥

hola

can i shout out loud?

HOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

mood

Randomness
I have some conflict in myself lately mixing with all kind of feelings.
Am always boring after CNY holiday.
Assignments and exams are waiting right ahead but am so lazy to do.
I don't know which one should i start first. I don't feel like wana give a damn fcuk about it
Somebody motivate me please? Can 'you'?

Sweet sweet
Valentines just passed in a few days. I went out with Zhi Jie to The Mines-the Lousy Giant bought food and drink for steamboat aka Ti Hooi's birthday celebration on Sunday. At night dinner with Mr.Hoe. I celebrated the V Day with 2 bf in a day. Yeahh, a different V day from the previous years. I feel sweet and great to spend the lovely day with them. Hugss! Nowadays i always can feel care from someone. Is that an illusion? If yes i want that illusion forever :) 

Sour sour
Sometimes you are hot and sometimes you are cold. Always am the 1 who go first. I don't like that :(

Bitter bitter
There is 1 pretty beast around me. I feel insecure. I need protection! Somehow many of us wana say thank you for giving us a good lesson of how to see the word, "friendship". 

xoxo

25 things

Bestest cousins and the sweetest siblings

Lately everybody in Facebook are so into "25 things". So ok am in the mood to write something now and i would like to type some 25 random things about me so that you could know me more.现丑了各位  ^_^ 

1. i like to go shop alone and be alone most of the time. privacy is very important to me because i always talk secret with my mom

2. i love my family. my mom, my dad, my brother and my sister is the very very super duper mambo fab important in my life

3. i tell everything of mine to my mom, except for one thing that i will not tell, which is: when is the first time i have sex X))

4. i might look young at my outlook but am havin an old woman thinking

5. i don't like night life as i think night life spoilt my skin the most

6. i like to manja with my family, "mommy you sayang me ok" used to be my fav whenever i talk phone with mom :>

7. of course, i like to manja with my precious more more

8. i like to travel and explore around

9. i'm looking forward to meet my prince wink wink

10. i like to spend money. i spend when i feel like want to altho had get scolded many times from my mom

11. i'm a nature lover. after studying at kl i found that i prefer village/small town live more than city

12. i like to celebrate traditional festivals with my loves 1

13. i have attended make up course but i don't really know how to make up (what a waste?) somehow i can apply foundation perfectly :)

14. i know how to control my tempere compare with last time de me 

15. i don't like crowd. i don't like to speak much when sitting with bunch of friends

16. i'm head porter fans but sadly latest yet cheap h.p only available at japan :/

17. i'm a high demand person, forever 不知足

18. i'm talkative (talk non-stop at home with my fav mom)

19. i'm going to be 21 soon (thinking of what surprise pressie will the family give :s)

20. i do eat alot and will grow fat very fast. (gain 4kg from 50-54kg after back from the 1month norway's trip)

21. i love to sleep very much and cousins always call me 'sleeping beauty'. (i know is not beauty at all lol)

22. i'm hardworking but lazy to move sometimes

23. i'm not creative person but once i do some hand made cards, i could be very creative and lovely :p

24. i don't shit everyday and therefore i think i don't have a nice skin

25. i don't have much friends and thats make me have a super duper mamboly good relationship with my family

为什么

两个小时前才刚从关丹会来，庆幸的是爸爸载我不用坐巴士。昨天是妈妈的生日，我们都渡过美好的一天，我要把最好最完美的爱给爸爸妈妈 ：）换床单和抹地是每次我从家里或吉隆坡回来都会做的事。好啦，刚才做完这几样事后我就打给旅行社继续跟进那4天3夜峇里岛的投诉。得到的答案不很满意。在这次的行程是我去过将多次旅行最不满的一次。我们遇到了一个超级大肥不负责任怕死贪吃贪睡怕输爱脸没礼貌的领队。要怪只能怪自己傻没询问和查清楚！不知为什么我的心情突然间变得很差。从柜里拿了一些礼物出来看，突然那些陈年旧事我与他甜酸苦辣的画面全涌出脑海。一瞬间感到很心痛！很想哭。我很久都没哭了。还好机灵的我知道如果再继续看和呆在房间想着那些不好的回意我会发癫，然后快快下到楼下去上网。

还好心情不好只是一下子。下个学期就会搬出去和朋友一起住，期待，期待，期待：）不知道与另外7个从不同地方来的同学住会是怎样的。应该会好好玩！但另一边家里上上下下的人都很担心我以后搬出去后的安全。哎哟，看来我这粗心大小姐形象已深入“民心”。我也不知道该怎样才是，唯有让他们一个一个轮流来参观那屋子，然后才放心。没关系我不太怕，因为我知道有“人”会保护。 huhuuhuhu。

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Gong Xi Fatt Cai

Hey hey all, GONG XI FATT CAI.

My ang pau is lesser this year because will be away for few days. Its ok, i managed to talk and build up relationship with all the only-meet-once-in-a-year relatives. I had corn-roll for my hair during this cny. It will become smelly if i dont wash hair for 2days. Ewwwwwwwwwh :/ No worries anyway, i think its easier to take care compare with aunty's dread lock.

Just finished packing my stuff. Talked and played stupid dances with the silly cute chin althoug just packing, cant imagine what extreme crazy moments we will have again for the coming days. Aunty might be going back to KL tomorrow so we plan to chill at her favorite place- Teluk Cempedak Beach but who knows, brother arrr brother weh please come back earlier next time. All of us cant go beach because of your late-coming-back.

Relatives and friends around me are into photography thingy with their dslr, tripodS, lenseS.. Arggh, am going to get it soon :) Am bit bit  jealous of my friend Jia Liang (a tattoo artist from Beijing) because he is using my favorite Mac. If not local uni i will be using the same Mac too instead of xps! Anyway thats not a problem, am satisfied with having my pod pod touch. 

Yea not to forget about my really first time having New Year Makan with the friends and seniors from school. Paiseh to say that, the 'organisers' which is us the juniors were late to the restaurant. I 'lost' when sitting with the seniors while waiting for the foods. After some talk with them, ehh not bad they are friendly and easy to mix with although they are 'grown up' people. Overall everything is good and went on smoothly. The after-dinner-game {please follow me to do this} was funny because many of them cant follow the beat and also bit awkward because the 'grown up' seniors dont want to play it. Huhu.

Lately am very semangat to upgrade myself. I have many things to do, to own and to learn. May be i should take all this as my new year resolution? I wana learn swimming from Eiki. I wana visit to Sarawak to meet my long lost darling- William and to Sabah with my roommate-Susan Yong. I wana learn French. I wana save money to spend as South Africa is waiting me ahead. I needa have more self-courages to do a potrait tattoo of mom and dad. I wana have more privacy with a personal room if i move out :s I wish to have more holiday and time to stay at Kuantan with my family. I wana study smarter than last year to achieve better result. (first sem result suxxx)

Bon vogage and good luck to myself and the family during the trip. Hmmm, 3-4 hours flight is not a matter to me but for the rest, better take some car sick or whatever transport sick pill before you fly. Weeeeeeeeeeee ^_____^

p/s: happy birthday to Kah Seng Yap and once again happy belated birthday to Wei Sin (the indian) :) 

last day

Today is my last day of staying at Norway.
I feel so so reluctant to leave.
Am sick when i think of getting back to the busy school life and the country.
I know i will miss the place where i have been to alot lot.
The bright stars in the sky.
Going for night walk without sweater and gloves in the minus degree.
Delicious typical local food and drink, the candy and soda.
The friendly, kind, pretty and handsome peoples.
The everything . . . . . .
~Tuh sen takk~
xøxø