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= heart my cute cute cousins and sister. picture taken when i went back to hometown last week. wine drinking session for the adults at downstairs and photo taking session for the children at upstairs =

hmm lately seems like everybody also very busy with their revision and none of my friends in my friend list updated their blog. like am the only 1 who are still so beria-ria to blog here. oppps, am i hardworking on the wrong side? was sad this morning. the exam is easy but i cant remember what i have read, so fcuk up la!! 2 more exams to go then the first semester will really end soon. look back the days and figure out what have i did and what have i learnt in this first semester. sometimes i feel that am alone. friends are around me but am like getting far and far from them. is it my fault that i do not join them much or i think too much? ^_~ some of my friends around me have started to move out as we can't stay in the hostel during semester break. feel reluctant to see them leave although we still will see each others by next year. i will miss you friends. wondering why am so easily emotional in these weeks. *frust+sobby* may be its because the stress of exams and some fcuking evil devils. argggh, how can i so easily defeated by devilssss?? ~amitabha, am standing on God's side so get lost from my way devils~ chatted with him this morning and thats make me feel better :') lately have been facebook-ing alot. after wake up then fb, after fb then eat, after eat then sleep again, after sleep then fb and after fb then FINALLY only start revision. what to do, really damn fcuking lazy to study. sighh. weekend coming soon and will go out gathering with 1 old friend.. outing again??! ~wake up susu, you still have examsssssss and you need to study!!!!!!!~ oOkay, gotta go study now..
p/s: what are you doing over there? i miss you heaps. do you miss me??
XOXO

sleepless night

its 3.40am and i just finished watching a korean drama disc 1. i started to be an 'owl' after leaving hometown especially when am in university! just went back to hometown again few days ago to visit a sick relative. pray that he will be back to normal soon. today reached hostel at a quite early time, around 1. i mean earlier than usual day. lunchi with cousins at subway and it was my first time trying it. we tried various choices of sandwiches, not bad! health food and will go for it again next time. cousin told us that subway its a very convenient and health fast food at uk and you can simply get it everywhere but its bit hard to get in local :) being alone in room aint that good feel and the loneliness increase my missing-ness towards my loves 1. as a result, my tears shed when i talked with mom thru mobile phone. haha. anyway i don't have a good sleep yesterday night. i had a nightmare! a scary nightmare of a fcuking bitch bully me together with her bitchy mother!! i should pray more so that god will bless my life and fcuk those bitches hell off far far away from me!!! TOMORROW WILL BE A BETTER DAY. . . holaaaaa
Peace XOXO

不睡觉

EVERYTHING'S CHANGED..
EVERYTHING'S CHANGED..
三更半夜，我不是读书，更不是在睡觉! 我的心情，早就已经是假期心情啦。 好希望，考试快快过完吧。时间也就快一点过到12月然后慢慢停留着吧。 趁着姨姨载我会来学校，今天搬了很多房间的东西回去。姨丈问我是来上学，还是来时装秀！咋到，只不过是拿两袋衣服和一袋鞋子回去，就讲多多。我看你女儿以后分分钟还利害过我啦!逛了逛 Winter Traveller, 才买了3样东西就签了近300百。理不了那么多，谁叫爸妈没来？！？！好久没和朋友去逛街了，虽然是有了从外地买来的[心水包包]和[心水听机]，但就好像缺乏了些亲自去购买的感觉。心情不好，想血拚！想到快发疯！
p/s:这次血拼是想和*你*一起去，就赏个脸陪我嘛，最多我请客？

不知道为何进了大学后遇到了很多“鬼魔”。
“自私鬼魔”为首，接着有“自大鬼魔”，“残忍鬼魔”，“双面鬼魔”，“虚伪鬼魔”，等等。当一个人真的纯心对你好，也没做出对你不利的事情；而你在另头,却在他背后做出一些伤害他的事情，你，身为一个读书人，不会觉得心虚吗？

la la

♥♥不要说我花心， 因为要忘掉这份感情最快、最好的办法,
就是接受新的恋情 ♥♥

unforgetable indonesia trip

delicious yummmmmmmmmy lunch

wrrommm... ~wroommmm.. ~the journey begin

the aftermath

yo.. we are the gang *4 in love*

fun horse riding. at first i don't feel like wana ride but since i see everybody were riding it so i **just do it **

cute sister sayang the horse with sunshining smile :>

michelle was jumping high on air like astro boy

half-active volcano. smell of sulfur everywhere.

along the volcano. the 1 wearing white cap keep on saying: "i look great in this picture, so upload, upload this picture!"

yea here come us again. we look pretty and youthful right?!

beautiful potraits everywhere around the restaurant

hulala ^

unknown statue

hehe :p

the picture~ 2 of us were perfect BUT michelle spoilt the picture!!! say "tak nak" to smile :/

enjoying the meal. am the photographer so you can't see me. weeeee :)

live band. they sang many romantic songs. *sweet*

we were posing cute silly faces after the awesome dinner. aunty sam- vivian- su chin- michelle- su ann

all of us gather outside Restaurant The Peak @ Bandung. its cold. everybody was superly full and satisfied tho had to sit 1 hour bus to reach to the top.

huh?

cousin's dog @ tracy.

WTH... what am i doing now?? from yesterday 9pm slept until today 12+pm. i was alone at home before i fall sleep and alone again after i woke up. peoples were off to work and school and while me? am suppose to do my revision! not sleep, not eat, not tv, not facebook, not blog, not hair treatment, not body scrub. feel helpless for my study :(

its like a 2days vacation more than a study time at klang. after aunty came back from working, mich and i were ready. then we head to vivian's school to fetch her and we off to pasar malam :) had a super great time chit-chatting about ghost stories, funny jokes etc.

cute cute puppy was ready for ' beauty fashion show'. he got the second prize last year but sadly this year 榜上无名

那个时候，女孩和男孩正处在恋爱的季节。每次打电话，两个人总要缠缠绵绵许久。末
了，总是女孩在一句极为不舍的“再见”中先收了线，男孩再慢慢感受空气中剩余的温馨，还有那份难舍难分的淡淡情愁……

后来，两人分了手。女孩很快就有了新男友，帅气，豪爽。女孩感到很满足，也很得意。后来，她渐渐感到，他们之间好像缺些什么，这份不安一直让她有种淡淡的失落。

　　是什么呢？她不明白。只是两人通话结束时，女孩总感觉自己的“再见”才说了一半，那边“叭”的一声挂线。每当那时，她总感到刺耳的声音在空气中凝结成冰，划过自己的耳膜。她仿佛感到，新男友像一只断线的风筝，自己那无力的手总也牵不稳那根无望的线。

　　终于有一天，女孩和他大吵了一架。男友很不耐烦的转身走了。女孩没有哭，似有一种解脱的感觉。

　　一天， 女孩又想起最初的男孩，心中涌起一份感动：那位听完她“再见“的傻男孩。这种感动让她慢慢拿起电话。男孩的声音依旧质朴，波澜不惊。女孩竟无语凝噎，慌忙中说了“再见”……

　　这回女孩没有收线，一股莫名的情绪让她静静聆听电话那端的沉寂。

　　不知过了多久，男孩的声音传了过来，你为什么不挂电话？

　　女孩的嗓音涩涩的，为什么要我先挂呢？

　　习惯了。男孩平静的说，我喜欢你先挂电话，这样我才放心。可是后挂线的人总是有
遗憾和失落的。女孩的声音有些颤抖。


　　所以我宁愿把这份失落留给自己，只要你开心就好。


　　女孩终于抑制不住哭了，滚烫的泪水浸湿了脑海中有关爱的记忆。她终于明白，没有耐心听完她最后一句话的人，不是她一生的守望者。原来爱情有时候就这么简单，一个守候，便能说明一切。

loving this moment

its me camwhoring!!! * muka yang berisi* but am happy with it. he ha ho hi hu %$^$!@!+)

am chilling in my room. listening Boney M's songs and texting with friend, at the other hand also playing fb, downloading the latest itune and checking some information about pod pod touchhhhhhhh ^_^ its been quite a while i can't be relax like this. all the assignments were settle, except for the Pengucapan Awam-tugasan 2. too bad :/ going back home this week again. not home sick, really have some stuff to do~ lalalalallla. should have a nice nap now or revision? nap? revision? nap? revision? nap? revision? nap? revision? nap? ok, will nap first then only revision. =fair= good night everybody. sleep tight and sweet dreams @_@
p/s: after the so called 1 2 hours 'nap' then will go for activities and no more revision.
nyeek nyeeek opss. . .

是你吗？

突然，感到有点心疼!
刚刚才发现
原来和我最亲近，最亲爱的人
都和大部份人一样
是自私，不替我着想的
逃避
好残忍！

。。。

最近。。
烦。第一学期接近尾声，每个人都各别忙着各自功课，呈交，呈现。
我虽然也和其他同学朋友一样，功课多得一箩箩，还没做，
可是我竟然还有时间去想其他的无谓事！
我说："我始终还是很难放弃他， 他令我感到痛苦。不是他不在乎我， 而是我把他看得太重。”
他说：“灵魂最深处，有些缺陷是补不回的。只有让时间将他埋没至最深处。”
说是容易，可是半年都快过去了，怎么还会将呢？
我说：“为什么我要做凡人？”
他说：“凡人好，是福报，这样你可以经历人世间的各种事情，更可以帮助其他人。 terresa修女有一次梦见自己踏入天堂，不过上帝却叫他回去人间，因为天堂没有需要他帮助的人。”
我想飞。
飞到一个无人识我的地方。
飞到一个我可遇到白马王子的地方。
还好年尾快到了，我真的可以飞。可是那只是短暂的飞~
♥王子，快来救我啊♥

over caring?

why?
why the good things i did nobody will see or mention or remember?
but when i accidently did a small mistake, you will remember about it all the time..
i always loyal and be your only faithful follower, i didn't betray you..
i only wana chil with friends once in a while, at late night nor day time..
like that also have to get permission from you?
i can stay at home or hang out with friends..
but i know you are alone, so i choosed to go to the fucking old folks dinner with you..
over caring is positive or negative?
any problem if a guy daily texting me or ask me to have meal together?
is that a sign shown that he is interested with me?
come on wtf mind is that!!
i know you are good but sometimes you really need to stand on my side to think for me..
i don't want to have the disappointed feelings on you..
don't make me hate you darling..

CourseNight2008

Chong chee wai aka daisy. New member of the malay group.

Aw yong chin hoe. Singer of the night.

This is ju nee, known as wong ju.

Course king of the day. Funny and silly. We will be taking the same major- Broadcasting.

Course queen of the day. A very sporting gymnastic player from Majlis Sukan Negara.

Seniors and juniors of Bachelor Communication UPM 2008.

routine

Class for Tamadun Islam dan Tamadun Asia
TITAS class is bored and cold. 4 of us (qing tong, wong ju, lee hsien and me) were wearing nicely in malay attire and ready for presentation,who knows the lecturer suddenly burst out.. "this week i will teach and the presentation we will do it next week".. wow, i was like. ok ok fine, next week baju kurung again -_'- for the whole 2 hours class, we were sitting behind dealing with our own stuff= chit-chatting, re-filing my document files, viewing friend's photos, gossiping, etc :) time flies and class dismiss. i felt hungry, so kawanku and i head to the newly open marry brown to eat and continue gossip. ops, ngiaaaakkk ngiaaaaaaaaaak!
p/s: not i 'black hearted' but the marry brown services really isn't that good, wonder when will it bankrap. . .


Assignments
Yesterday night i was trying my best to complete my Bahasa Melayu assignment without anyone's help and am happy with that, and think like hmm yes finally this is my first time can complete without anyone's help. (i know everyone complete assignment by ourselves is not a big deal but for me, stubborn type, i feel proud la. let me proud a while k) the next morning when lecturer checking time, OMG, what my friend did correctly is what i didn't do in my work. sigh, i feel frust and sad :( next, is the Media, Teknologi dan Masyarakat group assignment. this is better as my group members are responsible and had sent me all their parts. i only need to do some touch up and my own part, which is the masalah of ASTRO. sad to say that, my job is stil incomplete but am blogging here :) then, Pengucapan awam group assignment, power point slide show is done and 90% don't need me to go out present, as the other of my group member are glamour enough. so i think i will just sit by a side to do "clicking". Oral Interaction (English) group assignment and pass up SDL (exercise work sheets), also in this week. WHAT A BUSY WEEK!!!

Extra Reward
parents just finished their vacation at japan, hokaiddo. and ehem ehem ehem, being the cutest, the prettiest, the cleverest, the manja-nest, and so on -est at home, i got the most shopping stuff from them = my favourite perfume ( estee lauder travel exclusive), kose masks and lotions (originally from japan but not those selling locally), yummmy sweets and chocs (MELON!!!!), gucci bag (share share with bro la :/ ). next, mr. frankie is going to come back from us. and this time, should say being the hmmm? may be good girl :p i got a paul frank shirt, lesportsac bag, and an ipod touch? but is not all free. i will pay for some of it :) actually wanted to ask him to get me some other stuff. mom said to me, think of norway, then say NO to costly goodies. too bad :/
p/s: oppps like too showing off. don't jealous ^___^



Hometown
raya holiday go back kuantan for jaga umah, jaga adek and help out at the "9 emperor".
after raya holiday that week, will go back kuantan again for tooth treatment.
after raya holiday that week and that week (haha, what english is this?), will go back kuantan AGAIN, for my gong gong pass away first anniversary.
i will try my best to go back as often as i can on this semester coz i know i will be very busy on next year. not to say i homesick sangat, but if kuantan-kl distance also don't go back home, sounds like wasting. haha! :) i want my mom and dad and my cute puppy. *precious*

Pictures
be patient. coming soon...

谢谢伤害我的人，因为他磨炼了我的心志，

谢谢欺骗我的人，因为他增进了我的见识，

谢谢遗弃我的人，因为他让我懂得自立，

谢谢斥责我的人，因为他助长了我的定慧，

谢谢绊倒我的人，因为他让我知道了我自己的能力,

谢谢对我有偏见的人，因为你们，我更要证明我不是你们所看到的我！

alone?

I sigh to myself Thinking of those good times Looking though the shelf Seeing us in the past making up those fun crimes I feel the tears spill down my face It's as if I am numb with great distaste My mind running on this crazy race The broken heart of mine just left unlaced I whisper your name in the night Simply sighing here and seeing her eyes filled with such fright